Kai M
Editor in chief at existentialhorror.com // Law & Philosophy graduate // Jurist // Dedicated to a candid and genuine discussion of the psychedelic experience.

There is nothing wrong with distancing yourself from a friend if they romantically reject you, but compassion and communication are paramount.

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Back when I was in the first year of university I made a friend. We were not in the same classes, or on the same course, but our timetables seemed to align in such a way that we would run into each other maybe three times a week. When I became friends with her, my intentions were only ever platonic; I was happy to have simply met someone with who I could comfortably share personal stuff so early on during my time at uni.

However, one day, after a couple of months, I noticed I had developed a romantic attraction…


A potent and spiritually significant alternative to buying ethically dubious crystals

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Illustration by me, depicting the chemical structure for Amethyst Violet

Crystals have a long history of being used in a wide array of spiritual practices. For many, they are a significant and even instrumental part of their beliefs. However, thought is not always given to how those crystals are sourced.

The majority of crystals sold are mined in ways that are harmful to the environment, such as via strip mining (which destroys forests, natural habitats, and other landscapes), or even via the exploitation of disadvantaged individuals and children from places like the Republic of Congo and Madagascar.

Of course, it is still very much possible to ethically source naturally forming…


A small collection of philosophy books that are simple and clear enough to be understood by people who have no formal education in philosophy whatsoever

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Philosophy is generally considered to be an elitist field, and for good reason. The academic world has done very little to reach out and engage with the public. Philosophy is a tough subject to study, and this is not just because of the content, it is also because there are few people who are willing to make it open.

Additionally, most philosophical texts are tough to read. They often contain a ton of jargon and deeply specific language. Some texts are written in a dialectical format, where the authors (such as Hegel, Heidegger, and to some extent Kierkegaard) argue for…


Understanding Carl Jung’s spiritual phenomenon

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Connections — Illustration by me

is one of Psychoanalyst Carl Jung’s most significant concepts. This reasonably simple idea is the key to understanding Jung’s overall thoughts on life, reality, and spirituality as a whole.

Meaningful coincidences

Synchronicity can be simplistically defined as the existence of “meaningful coincidences”, where more than one event is connected together by neither causality nor mere probability.

Synchronicities are things which are both:

  1. Connected without any cause,
  2. And significant to somebody or something.

Carl Jung provides an example of synchronicity, which occurred when he was working with a particularly tough patient who was being reluctant to his methods of treatments. She had…


An ancient, yet simple, method of divination requiring only one object — a book

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Bibliomancy is a form of divination where you use the pages and passages from a book to attain spiritual knowledge or guidance. It is an ancient method of divination, dating back to as early as 2 BC with Jewish scholars using the Torah. It has also been used in Chinese culture with the I Ching.

Choosing the right book:

Bibliomancy is an extremely easy form of divination, requiring only one object: a book. However, not just any book can be used. To successfully perform bibliomancy, you need to use a book that you have some significant spiritual connection with. It is common for religious…


An unusual and powerful dissociative drug

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3-MeO-PCE is a strange and rare drug. It is a substance so rare that it has no street name. This is not the sort of drug that you just run into. For these reasons, my experience of this drug is very limited, although I have tried it around five times (which is five times more than most people I know).

For those who may not know, 3-MeO-PCE (3-Methoxyeticyclidine) is a stimulating dissociative which lasts around six hours. It is potent, with a threshold dose of just 1mg, and a standard dose of around 5–10mg. In some ways, it is similar…


Intro to the philosophy of fashion

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Illustration by me (with help from FontAwesome)

The world of fashion has been largely ignored and dismissed by philosophy. There is very little philosophical literature focusing on fashion, or clothing as an artform. I find this surprising as fashion is an instrumental part of human life; after all, we are all expected to wear clothing, we spend the majority of our days in clothes. We are the only clothed animal, so you would think that philosophy would have something to say on the topic, but scarily, there are only a handful of genuinely significant texts on fashion by prominent philosophers, and of the texts that have been…


A 3-MeO-PCE dissociative trip report

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Some substances leave a lasting impression on you. Not necessarily because they are tied to good or bad moments, but more so because they provide you with an experience so strange that you can never forget them.

This is a story about the second time I took a dissociative substance named 3-MeO-PCE. Unlike other, well-known dissociatives, such as ketamine and nitrous oxide, 3-MeO-PCE also doubles as a stimulant. While it doesn’t give energy in the same way as, say, cocaine, modafinil, or coffee, it is far from a sedating chemical. 3-MeO-PCE is not the sort of substance that you simply…


They may be dangerous but we can’t avoid them just yet

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With us being in the mist of an opioid pandemic (among other pandemics…) there is a large political push to ban them or at least significantly reduce the chances of people being prescribed these drugs. But doing this is actually extremely dangerous, and is (arguably) just another arm of the war on drugs. While banning opioids might stop new people from forming a dependence, it also prevents genuinely pain-ridden people from getting the treatment they need.

I believe the political position of banning opioids is morally bankrupt, and politically immature. Here’s why.

We have limited alternatives

We know opioids are dangerous. We know they…


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I have been intermittent fasting for three years. I treat it less as a diet and more as a lifestyle choice, this is because my primary reason for fasting is for its mental health benefits rather than weight loss. It is also because fasting is such a fundamental change to your relationship with food that it ends up affecting more facets of your life than you would initially expect. For one thing, it changes how you socialise, as you quickly learn that many gatherings with friends and family involve food and alcohol (of course this issue has been less relevant…

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